Friday, October 10, 2008

One of those days!!!

Ever have one of those days that just seem that something sad is going on all day long..... Well, that would be how my day was today!

It started out okay! Thankfully it is Friday!!! For those of you that don't know my grandfather had a massive heart attack July 31st. He was airlifted to Houston which is 5 hours from us. It is the only hospital in Texas who would perform the surgery that he needed done. He was in the CVICU for about a month and seemed to be getting some better and was moved to the CCU unit which is actually an improvement for him. He had a permanent pacemaker put in last week and seemed all was heading in the right direction until this week. Wednesday he started talking out of his head and actting crazy so at that point they thought he had either been over medicated or had a stroke so he is now back in CVICU and critical once again. Im just so sad..... Growing up he wasn't a big part of our life. Due to retarded conflicts with my mom. Now we are all old enough to decide for ourselves and we have went and spent a couple of holidays with him these last 3 years. Im just so heartbroken that my boys may not get to know him and will miss out on that like I did. I was so glad that we made it down to see him the Friday night that he was first taken down there. We were the first to arrive there and I was back with him and he told me how much he loved me and how we had always been on his mind and in his heart. The next day is when he had another heart attack and was placed on the ventilator. We had to leave the following day so I still haven't saw him since then. I did talk to him on his birthday which was Sept 24th but, I knew then he wasn't the same..... I asked him what he was doing and he told me, "I just got done jumping through some ditches!" Obviously the medication he was on was giving him some problems. He did know who I was though and told me he loved me. That Im truly thankful for! I would love to make it back down there this weekend but, we just can't afford it. Between gas, lodging and eatting we spent almost 250 dollars the last trip!

Also, our Momma cat had kittens back in July and we got rid of them today and her. We kept one kitten only because Devin was heartbroken over them leaving. I just couldn't take care of them any longer.... 4 cats plus my 3 boys, my nephew and the little girl I keep during the day was just becoming to overwhelming. Having to clean the litter ever single day, sweeping the laundry room twice a day cause they destroy the food bowl and litter pan, keep Matthew out of the cat food and then they started climbing the counters and knocking my breakables off the top of my cabinets........

Sorry for rambling Im just exhausted, and sad all rolled up in one! If you stuck with me this long THANKS! Hopefully tomorrow I will find time to share my boys with ya!


Jenn said...

Awww Cathy, Im so sorry!
Your post is so heartbreaking!
Please find the means to get back to see him soon!

My grandmother suffered from a massive heart attack in April, when I got to the hospital she was out of it and never woke up. She didnt know I was there and I never got to say goodbye!

Kerri said...

BIG HUG Cathy! I'm so sorry you had such a sad day. I really hope today is a better day for you. Leave your worries with the Lord and he will continue to comfort and bless you. There's no problem, circumstance, or situation greater than Him!
I love you!

Stacy Lambert said...

i wish you luck and you and your father, family, will be in my prayers. Stay positive. Especially when it seems so hard.

Kristine said...

Cathy, you and your family are in my thoughts and prayers.
Hugs to you.